everythin is back to normal **wink**

Yes... i finally trashed things out with nami. In case u're wondering why i'm so free to be bloggin right now, it's coz i'm once again at work. LOL... doc will be in only later in the afternoon. I'm here juz to slack and pick up un-necessary fone calls... **BORED** so anyway, i finally decided to send her a text msg last wed. And then we met to talk on thurs afternoon... we talked about lotsa stuff.. about her attitude, about mine.. I'm so lazy to blog everythin out.. haha~ So anyway, the end result was that, it was actually kinda/sorta my fault. Basically, it all boiled down to me being insensitive to her feelings and stuff. Well, the way she presented her arguments and reasons sounded rather persuasive... so being the regular Christabel, i apologized. haha once again...

But i'm glad everythin turned out OK. Coz on fri, we went for Gyu Kaku (it was juz mad delicious!! Heard that they hav 3 outlets in S'pore too!!) and then karaoke. And on saturday, shopping madness. Easter sales or smthin.. I bought 2 pairs of jeans and another key charm from juicy. OMG... my new key charm is soooo freaking cute!!!! U've juz gotta see it!!! Too bad i'm at work right now.. otherwise I could post up a pic of it!!! Haha~ Btw, i've decided to go on a diet and force myself into my new pair of jeans!! I know it sounds retarded... but nami and I purposely bought a smaller size so that we'll be motivated to fit into it. It's spasic... I bought one from Adriano Goldschmied and another from G-star. LOve my new jeans!!! Wanted to get something from True Religion but.. erm.. too many ppl in the shop.. so, i decided, another time perhaps. We were at Woodbury Commons from like 1-8ish?? Madness... then we had argentinian pizza for dinner... but as we were too exhausted, we didn't really had much appetite. Kinda sux coz the pizza was supposed to be very good u noe.. hmm

Oh btw, i wanna try this dessert restaurant smtime this wk!! Mayb tmr nite, perhaps~!! haha http://www.chikalicious.com/ looks delicious right?? and definitely appetizing!! When Imelia comes to NYC this summer, I'm sooo gonna bring her to the good restaurants in manhattan!!! haha~ I think we'd both probably gain weight before we return to Sg. And then, i've my trip to Japan, which is sashimi paradise!! OMG... i'm like so excited... HAHA~ Alrightey, gonna head back to stoning and rotting.... Mayb i'll post up some pics of my new buys later. Ciao!


**Thanks dora babe, for ur emails!!!!

Sick & Tired

It's been ee-yon years since i last blogged.. Having lotsa mixed feelings right. My studies are going well, it's the relationship part that sux. I juz cant handle it. Relationships with ppl ALWAYS gets to me.. does the problem really lie with me?? Why can't ppl juz pass each and every day happily?? Why do they ALWAYS hav to complicate stuff?? **frustrated**

Want to noe who's pissing me off this time?? My supposed NYC best fren. =/ Seriously, are japs more sensitive than others? Or am i juz insensitive to ppl's feelings? She gets mad at me over the slightiest thing, regardless of whether or not i'm the cause of it. I've never encountered such problems with any of my other frens before. Not jill, dora, pearlyn.. etc... I'm exhausted, pissed off.. and everythin else negative... Mayb coz i've never lived with my other close buddies, which is why we never quarrel/argue? We seldom even hav any disagreements! But Nami, she's juz too much i can bear smtimes.. she complains that i never read her moods, i dun understand how she feels. Basically, she feels that I dun care about her?? I'm like thinking.. "what the fuck?!" I go all the way out to help her whenever I can, to spend time with her whenever she wants.. I dun think i've even been so sweet/nice to anyone before, not even my ex-bfs!! Which is juz ironic... but still, it's never enough. My bro says, that's because I indulged her from the start. But.. i was juz tryin 2 be nice, tryin 2 help her the first time I met her, coz she was having problems with her bf.

Now that they've broken up, it's not that I mind that she relies on me. I make time for her whenever i can.. but everytime she stays over at my place (which is at least 3 days a wk), we quarrel. We knew each other since last June.. the quarrels started Oct/Nov 07? It has become like an on-goin thing for our frenship now. Whenever we meet, we're at each others' throat. Even if it's juz a conversation on the phone, we end up screamin at each other. I mean we dun literally SCREAM, but we get pissed off, and then we end up ending the call and enter cold war. But every single time, I'm the one who apologizes. =( (mayb except for ONCE) She doesn't say sorry. She vents her anger on me, and then says it's because i'm insensitive towards her feelings. She unleashes a whole load of crap on me, and turns ard and makes me feel it's my fault that I upset her, so I shld apologize. I'm not a ppl person. I think logically, i dun like to let emotions get the better of me. But with her, with Nami, when she begins or when I feel she's gonna break down, I juz surrender. I can't deal with a weaping person. Seriously, i'm always at a lost at wat to do when she does that. So wat do i do? I juz give in..

But yesterday, I juz couldn't take it anymore.... =( I left her stranded there and juz drove off. I know it was mean, but i'd reached my limit. what shld i do? We're goin to move in together... this summer.. she's goin to sg with me... wat if we juz quarrel again everyday??? Sigh sigh sigh....