September almost to an end...
My social life is in a mess right now. Kinda. I'm sorta attached but not really, coz apparently i'm not sooo into mr. E and as usual, dora always has the latest updates on my side. So wat's been going on?? A whole summer break went past juz like that.. most of my close frens will noe that the trip to japan was simply disastrous. I still cant get over it!! Never in my life(mayb now) have i ever had such a bad vacation. It was seriously screwed up!!!
Anyway, i woke up today and decided to hav some corn. I had bought some corn on cob earlier last week. I took the corns out of my refrigerator and stared at them. I suddenly realized that, i had no idea how to cook the corns!! I couldn't decide if i had to peel off the husk before placing it in the boiling water, or to simply dump them in, and peel off later. I was so shocked at my ignorance! I juz couldn't believe it!!!! In the end, i had to go online to search for instructions on how to cook them. I did it successfully, obviously.. they're juz corn. argh~
But the point was, it got me thinkin: Am i really that spoilt as wat nami claims?? We were brought up under different environments, we hail from different cultures & backgrounds and our education systems were different. Is that the reason for our many quarrels or rather disagreements/differences? I have no idea. When she asked me what i planned to do with her the other day, i really didn't noe how to answer. I didn't hate nor dislike her, but i also couldn't decide how we could be frens anymore. From the moment we knew each, till being best frens and living together, and now, falling apart with one another, has only been less than a yr. I can say, that was hell of a 1 yr to me (of course, i can't deny that I also had a hell lot of enjoyable moments). I dunno wat i want exactly. I dunno if i still want to be frens with her, or not. Part of me says I shld juz let go, some frenships juz dun work! But another part of me says, i shld give us another chance. how how how??? I think i'm turning into a very indecisive person!!!
I think things would be alot easier for me, if she had juz suggested that we not be frens anymore. But now that she is leaving the choice up to me, it's juz frustrating. i can't decide! =( sometimes, i feel so free without having to consider her feelings and all those crap, but at times, when i go past the restaurants that we used to frequent, or when i juz want some good spaghetti, i realize that i still miss her, at least a little. I've new frens now, new good frens. But somehow or rather, the feeling is juz not that same. When dora and chew were having problems, at least she had jill and the rest. I noe i hav dorry and jilly too, but the thing is, we're worlds apart! My new good fren here, Yan, doesn't noe everythin about me. She's kind and nice, but the feeling is juz different altogether. i noe i've to snap out of all this nonsense soon, but until i found a solution, pls forgive me for obssessing!! =(
Anyway, i woke up today and decided to hav some corn. I had bought some corn on cob earlier last week. I took the corns out of my refrigerator and stared at them. I suddenly realized that, i had no idea how to cook the corns!! I couldn't decide if i had to peel off the husk before placing it in the boiling water, or to simply dump them in, and peel off later. I was so shocked at my ignorance! I juz couldn't believe it!!!! In the end, i had to go online to search for instructions on how to cook them. I did it successfully, obviously.. they're juz corn. argh~
But the point was, it got me thinkin: Am i really that spoilt as wat nami claims?? We were brought up under different environments, we hail from different cultures & backgrounds and our education systems were different. Is that the reason for our many quarrels or rather disagreements/differences? I have no idea. When she asked me what i planned to do with her the other day, i really didn't noe how to answer. I didn't hate nor dislike her, but i also couldn't decide how we could be frens anymore. From the moment we knew each, till being best frens and living together, and now, falling apart with one another, has only been less than a yr. I can say, that was hell of a 1 yr to me (of course, i can't deny that I also had a hell lot of enjoyable moments). I dunno wat i want exactly. I dunno if i still want to be frens with her, or not. Part of me says I shld juz let go, some frenships juz dun work! But another part of me says, i shld give us another chance. how how how??? I think i'm turning into a very indecisive person!!!
I think things would be alot easier for me, if she had juz suggested that we not be frens anymore. But now that she is leaving the choice up to me, it's juz frustrating. i can't decide! =( sometimes, i feel so free without having to consider her feelings and all those crap, but at times, when i go past the restaurants that we used to frequent, or when i juz want some good spaghetti, i realize that i still miss her, at least a little. I've new frens now, new good frens. But somehow or rather, the feeling is juz not that same. When dora and chew were having problems, at least she had jill and the rest. I noe i hav dorry and jilly too, but the thing is, we're worlds apart! My new good fren here, Yan, doesn't noe everythin about me. She's kind and nice, but the feeling is juz different altogether. i noe i've to snap out of all this nonsense soon, but until i found a solution, pls forgive me for obssessing!! =(