can i juz repeat?

Omigosh... can i juz repeat and declare how much i love the british accents!!! They're cute!! Seriously, awesomely cute!!! And I was lucky to encounter this british LADY (i would have been more excited if it was a male specie.. but heck~) . Anyway, i met her while i was shoppin for some stuff in the convenience store juz near my hse and then she went like, "Excuse me, but wat perfume are u wearing?" Then I went on to tell her it was Banana Republic (ORIGINAL.. mind u...) and we discussed fragrances for a few minutes. haha~ It feels really gd when u're complimented that u smell gd.. all thanks to Banana Republic!! My favorite perfume.. and it's only sold in the States now!!

Ok.. then when i finished my conversation with that british lady, another spanish woman walked in and asked, "¿Habla español?" - Do u speak spanish? (Hello!! I'm not the salesgirl...!!)

So I tried to act-smart and replied, "Si, pero un poco solamente." - Yes, but only a little. Then she went on to ask me wat the writing on the cards meant... and i replied in 1 word or incomplete sentences.. i was so freaking embarrassed!! But it was a gd experience coz I was forced to speak in spanish, and i realized, hey i'm not that bad!! haha~ I think i need more of such practises...

Yikes, lunchtime!!! ¡Adiós!

argh~

I miss my cailler branche chocolates!!! I shld have bought 2 boxes instead of 1... damn~ I need to make another trip to geneva!!! I miss that place, miss the cute guys, miss their smooth wines, miss the alps...!! Ok.. been studyin too hard today.. goin mad now.... sux...

¡Preguntas, preguntas, preguntas!

I'm undecided!!! Shit... cant decide wat I shld major in... I wanted to do Pharmacy initially but St. John's not gonna accept anymore transfer students for that particular 6 yr PharmD course.. so i've to re-choose. There're quite a few options available for me... medical technology, cytotechnology, toxicology... or juz the 5 yr BSc-MSc chemistry course... how?!?! I've absolutely no idea wat i shld choose.. all of them sounds gd.. with gd future prospects!! This sux...

Haha am bored now... shld be revising but i'm not!! Damn... i need to motivate myself to work harder.. maintain my GPA... cant slack off at the end... alrightey, shall start off with my lab... argh~ cant believe i'll be doing lab reports for the next 4 yrs or more... lab work's fun, but not the reports.. esp since my cute guy has dropped out of the class!! Hope to hook up with the one in my chem lecture! haha~ Juz as dora says.. dun wanna spend all the festivals alone!! X'mas, valentine's day.. and wat have we... et cetera...

No more worries!

Yes!! My mom has finally been discharged from the hospital!! Wanna say a big thank you to all who expressed their concerns!! The emails, tags, e-cards, messages!! I feel relieved now... have been busy lately.. work as usual... and a spanish test tmr.. sux... coz it's gonna be a 2 chapter test but the professor did not specify what she'll be testing us on...

No classes for me again on wednesday.. haha~ my professors are juz cancelling classes like nobody's business! It's ridiculous.... anyway, halloween is juz round the corner! Any plans for that day? Frankly speaking, the answer is NO!! Coz i might be having a test on that day.. sux... i cant believe the end of october is approaching!!! I'm seriously counting down..... cant wait to meet everyone in sg again!!! Gotta mug now.. ciao!

Damn worried...

Mom juz called me on my cell.. her voice was hoarse and weak.. she's still in the hospital. Her blood test results were already out.. according to the doctor, she had a low blood count. Now i'm really worried... having a low blood count is really a big deal... i hope it's not smthin which i suspect... i dun even dare to think of it... if it's really that sickness, i juz dunno wat to do or even how 2 react... i'm not sure if the rest of my family members suspect the same thing as i do.. i dun dare to qns.... am in a super irritable mood now...

Sux.. i really really hope her fever will juz go away... there's nothin i can do except to pray... it's a gd thing i dun hav any upcomin tests.. otherwise i'll be so screwed.... juz wanna be alone... wished i'm in singapore now, then i can get the latest news about her health condition...

Hoy estoy muy triste...

Sighs... heard that my mom was re-admitted into the hospital.. apparently she was still running a high fever... and to make things worse, my younger bro has taken ill too!! Shit.... hopefully they'll be al'right...

No mood to blog about anythin else...

Sucky day...

Received a few gd news but also 1 bad news today... the bad news first. Mom was hospitalised.. she had a sudden onset of high fever which stubbornly refused to go away... had to be admitted to NUH A & E... suspected to be dengue fever *fcuk*... was on drip for 2 hrs... called my bro earlier and he said she has been discharged... did quite a few blood tests, hope it's not dengue fever... damn the aedes mosquitoes... pray that her fever will go away soon enuff and that it's only a false alarm. sighs......

Gd news? Well, did pretty ok for my math test.. i thot i could hav gotten better marks today.. not satisfied with my grade but oh well... shldn't complain so much. Not in the mood either... gonna get back my chem test tmr... am quite worried... and then there's the upcomin spanish test which i'm totally not prepared for..

Math classes are cancelled tmr and the day after.. i supposed that gives me more time to mug for spanish.. no sch for me on wed coz the english class has also been cancelled.. what professors i have... *lol*

I was in the "thinking" mood again... the past kept comin up.. dunno why... i miss everybody in sg... feelin nostalgic once again... then there's dear dora.. i dunno how i can help her.. sighs... i do agree with her, why cant we juz be kids again? Worries-free.... but then again, my childhood was pretty erm boring.. *lol* juz slacking ard the whole day.. parents working.. not that it bothered me.. the worst was in primary sch, i could never seem to catch up with any sch work.. jill will know. haha~ the only memorable thing was dog and bone!! haha~ Best times i had in primary school...!!

Then of course, there's sec sch.. haha~ dun hav to say anymore!!

Although i do not hav to worry so much about failing and stuff now, but my social life is seriously going down to the pits. It's horrifying!! It sux when u cant go clubbing even when u want to (esp when it's gonna be FREE!!)!! I wanna be 21 asap!! Oh gosh.. i so miss the drinks!! The feeling is terrible!!

Quote from Sex & the City

Carrie: Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a plane ride away. Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe you have to let go of who you were, to become who you will be. Or maybe we just tend to obsess over relationships that feel un-finished..

Shopping shopping shopping

Aha~ I braved through the vicious rain and finally got to the mall early!! Bought a pair of velvet boots... damn nice! And another pair of pants which i sent for altering at this korean shop near my hse... once again, i was mistaken for being a korean... *lol* shall post up pictures of my boots later if i'm free...

Anyway, here's an old song with meaningful lyrics.. enjoy yeah!

Come outside and see a brand new day

The troubles in your mind will blow away

It's easy to believe they're here to stay

But you won't find them standing in your way

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Come outside and feel the morning sun (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Life is much more simple when you're young (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Come on, essa vida é

That's the way life is

That's the way life is

Although we see the world through different eyes

We share the same idea of paradise

So don't search in the starts for signs of love

Look around your life, you'll find enough

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Come outside and feel the morning sun (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Life is much more simple when you're young (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Come on, essa vida é

That's the way life is

That's the way life is

Why do you want to sit alone in gothic gloom

Surrounded by the ghosts of love that haunt your room?

Somewhere there's a different door to open wide

You gotta throw those skeletons out of your closet and come outside

So you will see a brand new day

The troubles in your mind will blow away

It's easy to believe they're here to stay

But you won't find them standing in your way

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Come outside and feel the morning sun (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Life is much more simple when you're young (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Come on, essa vida é

That's the way life is

That's the way life is

Come on, essa vida é

That's the way life is

That's the way life is

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Come outside and feel the morning sun (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Se a vida é, I love you (Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)

Life is much more simple when you're young (Aah-aah-aah-aah)

Se a vida é

Sung by: Pet Shop Boys (Se a Vida É - That's the way life is)

I HATE THE RAIN!!

Yes, I hate the rain!!!! Damn it... it has been raining NON-STOP since yesterday!! Wat's wrong with the stupid weather!!??! Juz tryin 2 keep me away from the mall!! So freaking pissed... Hmph! But nothin's gonna keep me home today.... I'm gonna go out and get my boots and pants... damn damn damn...

Anyway, juz finished this little quiz that dora invited me to do. Sad to say, i only scored 50!!! Wat the hell....!??! Guess I still dun know her that well huh... we need more bitching moments... *lol* Have to change now... think i'm gonna wear slippers out, otherwise my sneakers are gonna be drenched! Can't believe it's still raining cats and dogs... I juz dun understand why the clouds can hold so much rain....

¡FEATURE OF THE DAY!

As the title suggests indeed...! haha~ Featuring my dream guy, Jason Lewis!! Love guys with deep (colored!!) eyes, short hair... well, not really THAT short.. but i kinda dislike guys with long hair... Anyway point is, smthin like Jason below!! haha~ Matured (He's 32 by the way, I kinda have a thing for older men!), with a gd heart... gosh... I think i see "the one" somewhere nearby.... do u think he's gonna walk towards me? I can't wait to find out... *on cloud nine today so dun mind me!*


Jason Lewis

It's cold...

Another 2 days break for me!!! Woo-hoo~ Gonna slp till 12pm!! haha~ Mayb finish watchin mary poppins... and supernatural... Had my math test today.. I think i did pretty well, shld be able to get an A! Am pretty worried for my chem test though.. I mean i attempted every qns, but i'm not sure if i got all the facts right... sux... hate this kinda feeling...!!

Gonna buy a pair of boots tmr!!! haha~ And I feel like getting another trench coat.. and more turtlencks.. weather's turning cold... love autumn but hate winter! hmm... Maybe I shld try 2 drag my cousin out with me!! *evil laughter*

I miss my swiss chocolates!!! argh~ Why cant i get to meet any swiss here!!?? Then i can ask he/she to bring back some cailler branche for me... damn... WHEN CAN I BUY A WATCH FROM AUDEMARS PIGUET!??! This weekend's gonna be busy for me in the clinic... hav to work like mad coz the other girl's going back to China...

Hehe~ gonna play the age of empire II now.. my stupid cousin is playing age of empire III!!! Omigosh... the peasants are damn cute!!

It's my McDonald's

OOOohhhh.... McDonald's breakfast in NY is juz CHEAP!!! I mean as compared to the meals in Singapore... I bought a Sausage with egg McMuffin meal for breakfast today for only US$3.89 (tax incl.)!! In sg, 1 mac meal costs at least 6 bucks?? Madness....

I juz LOVE Mac breakfast!! Tasty!!! And their hasbrown....... mama mia! Argh~ hav to get back to work now.. haha~ 'later!

Gosh... i'm damn tired....

Muz be surprised to see me blogging so early on a friday morning huh? well, i'm at work!! damn it... slpt at 1.30am last nite (thanks to Brandon!! argh~).. was dozing off in the subway... it's already 9.20am.. but the doctor's still not in yet... gd thing he gave me the keys otherwise i would have to wait outside the clinic for him....

My eyes wanna close... but at the same thing, i'm so freaking hungry... have a sudden craving for Nasi Lemak.. dunno why.. haha~ pretty outta point huh? Anyway, chem test is finally OVER!! *Yippy* I attempted every qns.. but i think the chances of getting an A is pretty slim... i juz hate the essays part... why cant everythin be short answers!! stupid professor...

Guess i'd better pretend to do some filing now.. juz in case the doctor steps in and see me slacking ard... not that he minds.. haha~ ciao!!

¡What a cruel world we live in¡

Shortly after i finished chatting with dora on msn, I received an email from my "inspiration". It was basically a reply to qns i asked her last weekend on why the good are often not rewarded in the way they expected, but rather, hurt once and once again. I feel for dora who was hurt so deeply by that bastard....!! This was wat my "inspiration" wrote to me:

For the most part, we live in a cruel, uncaring world. It is a world full of bitterness and hatred, strife, looking out for No. 1, and violence. Sin is the culprit and it's been this way since sin entered into the world and people forgot God.

We live in a world where we won't take responsibility for our actions. We blame the past and anything and anyone for the evil that we do. We live in a apathetic society where evil is looked on as good, and we come down on anyone who fights and speak out against the evil. We're mean and nasty to each other, and those that profess to follow God do mean things to others all in the name of God to justify their evil actions.

"It's not fair" is the oft-heard cry of those who feel cheated because things did not work out the way they wanted them to. Well, it's not a fair world we live in. Get that through your head. Children make these statements. It's time to put away childish things and grow up. This is the human tendency, wanting to establish right and wrong on the basis of what happens to us personally. This is the "me first" mentality that is so prevalent in the world. Let me ask you a question. Answer if you can. How can justice be administered for all of the human race if personal satisfaction is the standard?

God gave us the gift of life with all it many choices and He also gave us the Bible with its commandment approach contained within its pages against which to measure justice. Personal, subjective standards cannot define absolute truth. Only through God's objective, holy standards can true and ultimate justice be obtained. It's time to stop grasping for the wind such as the American dream and start letting go of the things hindering us from finding God and teaching our children the same.

Blaming the past and something else for the way we act now will only make things worse. Get rid of your bitterness, hatred and the things that hinder you from being a better person. Don't you know, as long as we hang on to these thing God will be forever lost to us. We're not God, so we can't forget what happened to us, but God gave us the power to let go; we shld use it wherever and whenever necessary.

The above text may have sounded harsh but it was definitely a straight-forward way to convey the message it was meant to bring across. Personally, I've never been hurt so deeply by a guy before so i'll never understand how terrible that feeling is. But from wat happened to my close frens over the years, i can more or less feel and understand. Which is why i refuse to commit to any relationship till this day, i always believed this saying: A heart is not a toy, if you want it broken, Just give it to a boy. He'll hold you in his arms and say he loves you until he sees another girl, then he'll say, "To hell with you!"

Don't we smtimes wished that we were a little kid again... coz skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts...

**To dora: My "inspiration" has been divorced twice... but she hasn't given up on finding the right guy up till this day! So you shldn't either! And I'm sure that ass will be punished in future!! At least u found out wat kind of a guy he really is now! Glad u discovered many worthy friendships after this bad experience. Don't push anything too hard, if it's meant to be, it will happen!! All the bittterness and hatred u feel now will only be transient, hope u will better when we're in disneyland!! haha~

A thought..

Along Life's road you will find....

There is a curve called failure.

A Loop called confusion.

Speed Bumps called Friends

Red Lights called enemies.

Caution lights called family But....

If you have a spare called determination,

An engine called perseverance,

Insurance called faith,

And a Driver called Jesus,

You'll make it to that place called SUCCESS!

That's so true... as everyone knows, i'm on a 2 day break!! Great.... lotsa to mug for in chem before the exam this thursday.. finally settled all my flight thingy... all the nitty gritty here and there!! All i've to do is work hard for the next 3 months and i'll be able to have a holiday after that!!! Yippy!! I "smell" somebody upstairs in the living room... think it's my cousin's cousins.... BRANDON!! U'RE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING UR PHYSICS LAB REPORT!! WAT THE HELL ARE DOIN WITH THE PS2!??! DAMN U!!!

Haha~ wonder if he'll get to read that msg... most of my frens are online now.. but i'm too lazy to disturb them... haha~ shall go and hav my breakfast! Adiós!