Shld I reply??
Juz received an email from somebody whom i thot hated me to the core.... not sure if i shld reply it or not... I mean I thot he wanted me out of his life forever.... he mentioned a few of the happier moments we shared which kinda surprised me coz apparently, he was freaking pissed with me when we broke up. Guys... weird beings... Anyway, the usuals in that email.. 'Hi, how've u been? busy with ur new life in NYC i supposed?'...
He "sounded" so nice (as usual!).. asking me about my life and stuff.. for a moment or two, i kinda felt bad for the way i used to treat him.. i mean, he was a really sweet guy, ALWAYS giving in to me, and i kinda really liked him... but yes, still we split. WHY? Coz i couldn't get past the fact that we might not have a future together... I hated the fact that we had different "wants" and goals in life... am i really that picky?! I think i'm juz being realistic... can't help it... i dun want to be poor... i hate being poor!! I hate not having the money buy what i want, to do what i want! And I'm certainly not about to allow a guy (who has no aspirations!) ruined my dream life...!!
*a big sigh* The truth is always cruel... i hope he doesn't read this post otherwise i'm screwed! *oops* but in any case, if he is reading this, juz wanna "say": HEY! i really liked u before, but i guess things juz didn't work out. I hope ur life has gotten better, i will not be replying your email coz I kinda feel that u still hate me... so.. take care! and maybe we can meet again when i'm back in singapore in dec! =P
Receiving emails from ex-bfs always feels weird... coz first thing when i see the person's name, "gosh... is he gonna curse me again?" Coz i'll never forget the weeks after we break up... hate sms-es, emails...et cetera... it's unbelivable! Then when u open to read the mail, it goes like, "hi! Juz wondering how've u been?" (u-know and stuff) Who was the smart alec who said that who could still be frens after breaking up?? It's bullshit!! Trust me... if u can still be frens, it simply means that either one party did not really liked the other one that much...
Enuff of all the crap.. i shldn't let the past affect my future! haha~ damn it.... gonna slp... *yawns*